When Luke was little Mother's Day was full of pre-school handprints and sweet cards full of misspelled words. Heart drawings that were lopsided and more exclamation points than even I use. There were hugs around my knees and me lifting him up to get all the kisses I wanted. Then there were the elementary days when he still came home with poems and art and the quintessential coupon book full of coupons for "dusting the bookshelf" and "Mom's choice for Friday night movie". My life as a mom in the earlier years was full and demanding and I was physically doing so much with and for Luke. Mother's Day for me was both about spending time with Luke but it was also about a break. I have the greatest husband on the planet who always recognized this and had in store for me the perfect balance of family time and alone time for this busy mom. I craved a morning full of snuggles and handmade cards but I also craved a trip to the bookstore just to wander through the stacks alone, or a coffee date with friends not at the playground. Having that time and space to reconnect with myself was priceless and necessary as a mom of a young child. Alone time for me was such a gift! So, an everything bagel with cream cheese, a family walk, and time alone. Those were my Mother's Day wishes then.
Mother's Day now is just as wonderful but in a very different way. Luke still makes me a homemade card but he no longer misspells words. His hugs are no longer knee height and the mom coupons now say things like "I will make dinner" and "I will walk Jasper for 30 minutes". The biggest difference is that I no longer crave time alone. Luke is busy and his life is full of wonderful friends and adventures of his own that no longer include me. I love that and I am so glad he is on his own path and making friends and memories that will be forever part of his life story. So come Mother's Day I am so grateful for quality time with my son. I get him all to myself and I soak up every second of that TIME! Time with no agenda, no list, no timeframe, no knocks on the door or places to be. Just time for us. More time with Luke is such a gift to me! This is the evolution of motherhood. So, an everything bagel with cream cheese, a family walk, and time with Luke. Those are my Mother's Day wishes now.
Luke, being your mom is the greatest joy of my life! I love you!
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